SomethingNew

I hate my mood lately.

too moody to be true.

At first, i really don't know what is wrong with me...

But now, i think i know what happen to me lately.

Dilemma.

I don't mean to share my bad side of me, people..

really.

I just don't know how to share it with someone.

I think post it here will be okay...

This time, i really have to move on.

i don't have any reason to stay with this uncertain feelings.

i hate it !

i really have to focus on my passion.

The Problem is..

i don't really sure what my passion is..

I'm TOTALLY in PROBLEMS.

Problem to decided what is my Passion..

Problem to control my Feelings..

Problem to control my Emotion..

Problem with so many things!!

I want my freedom..

Not like my life lately..

Do something i don't really like..

Do something that others want me to do..

Yes, Pathetic.

At my 1st post on this blog..

i said that i want to do what i want to do..

and be what i want to be..

But now what?

I'm still INSIDE THE BOX !

Talk Less Do More.

I need that right now.

Stop Dreaming !

Do it !

But hey !

wake up !

This is life...

You must fight for yourself...

You must stand on your own feet !

I realize that.

And i have decided one thing..

one important thing..

At least for me.

i want to quit..

Quit from doing something i don't want to..

It's hard..

VERY VERY HARD !

But I just want to be free..

Free for myself..

Do what i really really want to do..

yes, i have decided..

when the time comes.

I will quit.

Right.. I think that will be my first move...

I hope everything will be allright.

:)

Picture of the Day.

"Freedom, Hopes, Spirit, Brand New Day"

Bunch of Love,

Felisia

BeautifulSunnyDay

Yes, like the title..

Today is really a beautiful day..

:)

this picture belows always makes my feelings touched.

warm, beautiful, trust, calm, aware, secure, something like that..

so peaceful. :)

okay, eventhough today i just cuddling in my room, but still.

i can feel that today is really a beautiful day ! haha..

Like around 5pm, i open my door, and.... *breathtaking*

Yellow everywhere.. The wall, window, door, floor, stairs, everything. :)

Sunset time... !

ooh... i always love "Yellow Sky"..

Beautiful... and again..

Breathtaking.. :)

too bad i forgot to capture that wonderful view. :(

so i just search all about sunset pictures.. oh, how i like that......

i wish i was there....

i wish i was them...

amazing...

okay...

Honestly, i'm not really sure what kind of topic i want to share it with you, people..

i just want to share SOMETHING ! hahaha..

so, here i am. :D

Maybe it's because this cool movie.....

The Blind Side.

i watched it couple days ago.

So sweet, Touching, and Meaningful...

:)

i dont want to become a spoiler, people..

Just want to tell you that it is a must watch movie. :)

You can learn how to love others, how to protect the one you love, how precious your family is..

i can't describe it into words.

too sweet. :)

i'm in love with Sandra Bullock too !

She is amazing on that movie.

want to be a mommy like her someday..

Cool mommy, and hv an angel's heart...

and the best part is, i always love the Happy Ending movie. :)

ah..

a minutes ago, i just gave my cousin a challenge..

(makes me excited to read his Blog.. with a nice topic of course)

hahaha..

i ever challenge him before.

more difficult i think..

(tell me about yourself, and makes me surprise)

Then he tell me that surprising story about him on his blog.

i like the way he writes about himself.

simple, but meaningful.

haha.

so, on this 2nd challenge,

i want him to write on his blog again. LOL

This challenge things started when he reach 1600th tweet on his twitter.

and the pop up idea come to my mind..

he must tweet something special on his 1600th tweet.

that must be about himself i think..

so he writes something on his blog , and share it to me. :)

maybe it's too long, so he cant write it on twitter.. LOL

i want to share it with you someday.

but, i must get his permission first. :)

okay then,

i want to read his blog first.

share something later. :)

ah yess, want to share this picture to you... breathtaking one.

i cant describes my feelings when i see this picture.. it just -oh so amazing- for me..

proud, happiness, confidence, warm, yet.. it's scary too..

i called it "Life". :)

Bunch of love,

Felisia.

Journal's Journey

I have many things in mind..

Many things i want to tell someone..

but i can't...

Many things i want to share with someone..

but i can't...

Many things i want to be..

but i have no confident to become what i want...

So Complicated..

But i kinda enjoy it....

Live with so many things in my mind...

it means i'm alive.... :)

One of my wishlist is to become a person who can share my life's journey to others..

it's difficult, i know..

because not only a good skill to write, but also an interesting journey i must have...

I'm wondering..

is my life worth it to share ?

at first, i would say..

"Of course not, my life is sooo flat.."

But if you ask me now, i'll say...

"Of course yes, my life will never flat because i have so many dreams, many expectations, and a bunch of spirit to share my life's journey to you ... "

I finally realized..

i'm too INSIDE the box..

i'm afraid to be different..

i'm afraid to be weird..

i'm afraid to break the rules..

i'm afraid what others would say about me..

Yes, you might say i'm a boring person..

Yes i am.. Yesterday.

But i have my own wishlist...

to become more ME..

not others.

" i want to do what i want to do..

i want to be what i want to be..

not what others want me to do..

not what others want me to be.."

This is my life...

No one can ruin it..

No one can make a rule in it..

No one can judge me..

I judge myself..

I appreciate other's opinion..

But i appreciate mine More. :)

Sounds a little bit arrogant..

It's okay..

Still..

Maybe it's the truly me..

and i love myself a lot...

Thats okay if people say i'm weird, geek, selfish, stubborn, childish, etc.

As long as i become myself, it's okay.. :)

But hey.

How long you will judge people from they weakness?

i know myself better than anyone else..

That's enough....

At last.

Love yourself more..

you are WORTH IT. :)

Ah yes, i found this picture today from photobucket.

Love it so much !

Bunch of Love,

Felisia.